Here's a TEDEd video and podcast episode to explore if you think you may have been involved in a cult of any kind and are looking for some clarity around the experience itself or the aftermath from the experience. The impacts of cult participation can show up when involved with any person or group that encourages you to give up control over how you think and view yourself or the world around you. The impacts of giving up personal agency and interpretation of your own thoughts and feelings can be far reaching and confusing. Therapy with a supportive person who won't force things, is aware of cult phenomena, and values cult recovery efforts can be useful.
I am a therapist in private practice working to assist those struggling with self-doubt, guilt/shame, addiction, anxiety, depression, and grief to decreasing the struggle with internal distress and commit to actions that move them closer to the things they value most.